I’M BACKKK!!! and it feels pretty damn good. I have to say I have missed blogging a little bit over the past month so I am fully happy to be back.
I took time away from blogging over the past month and a bit to concentrate on my uni work. I am in my final weeks of university so I have literally been drowning in work so my priority has been to get that finished. I still have an assignment and exam left to do but the dreaded dissertation and other essays are all complete and handed in so yeah…that feels amazing.
What next? I honestly don’t have the faintest idea about what I want to be doing with my life after university. I was clueless when I started uni and I’m clueless now. I would say I’m stressed but also quite chill about my life situation. Like I know I need to find a full time job that relates to my degree as well as moving flat in a few months which is exciting but I’m trying to just focus on my uni work for the next few weeks and worry about the other things later. I know that my end goal in life is to be a social worker however, I don’t want to rush into it. I’m only 21 so there’s no rush. I think I want to take the next few years gaining relevant work experience and doing voluntary work as well as working full time in a job that relates to my degree and that can help me gain more experience in order to get into social work later in life.
I am currently thinking of working with foster children/ families/ care leavers and offering them advice about what the future holds and what to expect from life after being in the care system. I didn’t think I would be as interested in this topic area until I wrote my dissertation about looked after children and their mental health. I found this really interesting which led me to rethink my career goal. Being a care leaver myself could also do with the fact that I’m so interested in the topic. I also recently did some voluntary work at a child contact centre in the North East and omg – I loved it. I didn’t want to leave but I had to due to it clashing with work and uni hours. I would love to go back into that kind of work someday but for now I just need to get past graduation.
I fully believe that everything happens for a reason and whats meant to be will be. I feel like that is why I’m so chilled out about my whole life situation at the minute. I’m kinda just going with the flow and seeing where I end up. Of course I know I have to put the effort in of finding a new flat and a full time job but I’m just taking life day by day at the moment and I’m loving it. I feel a lot more relaxed which has inevitably left me feeling happier.
I am making healthier life choices that have helped me be a lot happier. I was in a bad place mentally throughout the beginning of the year which led me to basically never leave my flat, fall asleep at 5 in the morning and not waking up until about 3pm which resulted in me wasting my day and missing uni which inevitably made me feel more depressed. This then led to me comfort eating which resulted in weight gain which led to low-self esteem which led to me starving myself for a bit to lose weight quickly. I can confirm however, that I now have a healthy mindset and I am making healthier life choices. I now get up at 7 everyday and I am normally in bed and asleep by 11ish. This has made me become a much happier and more productive version of myself as I am not sleeping away most my day and I am actually getting up and being productive with my day and attending uni and getting work done. I also see my family on the regular now when compared to the past which is amazing.
One thing that I have recently stopped doing was comparing my life to my friends and families life. This was making me feel like shit as I felt like everyone around me has their life together and was settling down with their little families/ partner and I was over here feeling like my life was falling apart because I was clueless about my future. It took a while but I got myself out of this negative mindset as I realise that everyone goes through life at their own pace and that I will have the things that my friends have one day but I will just have them at a different stage in my life. I am now grateful to be in this stage of my life as I am quite independent and I’m exited to move into my first proper flat that isn’t student accommodation and see what the future holds. I know I will always have the support from my family and close friends so even though I will be living alone (which is amazing and I cant wait) I know I will always have them near by if I ever need them and vice versa.
So there you have it. This is where my life is at currently. I’m just taking every day as it comes and trying to live in the moment instead of spending my time worrying about the future.
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